April 17, 2012

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  Why are women attracted to bad boys?
  
  I don't know what the appeal was. Is it the urge to "save" or "reform" a man or to think a bad boy would actually change for them because they considered themselves more special? Or perhaps is it the excitement or thrill of something of the unknown? I remembered back when I was really young. The first boy that asked me out was considered one of those "bad boys" but I was attracted to him nonetheless. The fact that he was bold and have enough guts to ask me out made me liked him more, I wondered if it was because I liked his cool demeanor or his piercing cold stare. I was really young back then and didn't know anything about dating. I just said yes and that was it, we would pass each other in the halls but not say anything. I would occasionally steal glances and caught him looking at me with that intense stare and I looked away immediately. I've never been so scared, nervous and shy in my entire life. In fact, I was so petrified that during lunch I would sit at a different table across from him and I wouldn't eat. Why? Wouldn't / couldn't...could mean the same to you I guess. Those were the two years in my life that I rarely eat. Needless to say, my extreme shyness caused him to think I didn't like him so we broke up only after two weeks. I acted like any teenager girl, obsessed and depressed. I'd remember I'd practiced writing his name over and over...Eing, Eing, Eing as if it would make any difference. We never gotten over each other til we were much older. For me, it was because he was my first, the first guy to ever asked me out and the first that I really had liked. First puppy love you could say.
  
  As I get older, the bad boy image doesn't really appeal to me anymore, although a guy with a bad boy facade without the bad boy attitude is still appealing to some. I've had people asked me what I look for in a guy and I always say that I know what I want and what I don't want in a person. They asked me what specific traits do I look for? I simply say that I only know that I have a lot of don't wants, and the wants seemed short and simple but not really. It comes down to the fact of the matter is what I'm willing to compromise on and what I will not tolerate. As it turn out, I can not tolerate a lot of things...too many things, even though I tried hard to overlook things. I wonder if it's because I myself not really wanting to be in a relationship hence I find anything in the other person not to like them? OR maybe I just don't want to settle, I don't want to have to "overlook" certain things and compromises too much. I think it's my personality type that makes me not able to tolerate traits in others that I considered as weaknesses. Sometimes I feel that my thinking is too complex that I don't even understand myself, but the thing is I want to understand everything. Nothing fascinate me more than understanding peoples' behaviors and personalities and understand oneself. Whatever it is I'm waiting for, I'll know it when I see it.
  

  I like this song, fitting doesn't it? I love NY too so I should head there very soon.

  English translation:
  

  I was too harsh that night
  I didn’t know you would really leave
  The words, “I’m sorry”, is too difficult for us that we take it to the end
  Because I’m ill-tempered
  We fight over stupid things numerous times a day
  You take off crying, I look around and think,
  ‘She’ll come back tomorrow. She’ll definitely call me first in the morning’

  Baby, I can’t, I’m so bad that I want to be good to you but it’s hard
  Every day and night I’m so mean cuz I’m so real so I’m sorry (but I can’t change)

  I’m the one you love but sorry I’m a bad boy
  Yes, just leave me, good bye, you’re a good girl
  The more time passes, the more you get to know me, only disappointments will remain but
  Baby don’t leave me, I know you still love me
  Why, yes, I’ll tell you the truth, I need you
  My lay lay lay lay lady
  My lay lay lay lay lady

  You say that I’m different than other guys so it’s hard
  You’re still like a young girl with a soft heart
  For you, who is always smiling next to me, I’m still too young
  With the excuse that I’m busy, I postpone our date
  Because I’m sorry, because I’m frustrated, I turn my head
  The bride in my dreams is just a friend now
  Upset over the breakup, we are silent

  Baby, I can’t, I’m so bad that I want to be good to you but it’s hard
  Every day and night I’m so mean cuz I’m so real so I’m sorry (but I can’t change)

  I’m the one you love but sorry I’m a bad boy
  Yes, just leave me, good bye, you’re a good girl
  The more time passes, the more you get to know me, only disappointments will remain but
  Baby don’t leave me, I know you still love me
  Why, yes, I’ll tell you the truth, I need you
  My lay lay lay lay lady
  My lay lay lay lay lady

  Don’t say a thing
  I act tough but I’m not inside
  Don’t abandon me
  You know that there’s no one who will understand me like you, baby
  Oh you, come back to me ye ye ye

  I’m the one you love but sorry I’m a bad boy
  Yes, just leave me, good bye, you’re a good girl
  The more time passes, the more you get to know me, only disappointments will remain but
  Baby don’t leave me, I know you still love me
  Why, yes, I’ll tell you the truth, I need you
  My lay lay lay lay lady
  My lay lay lay lay lady

  I’m the one you love but sorry I’m a bad boy
  Sorry I’m a bad boy, Sorry I’m a bad boy
  Yes, just leave me, good bye, you’re a good girl
  You’re a good girl, you’re a good girl
  

  
  
  
  
  

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