Once in awhile I would remember and reminisced some things that has long passed. I think some of the most deeply engraved memories are the ones in conversations that I've had. Perception is in the eyes of the beholder. I've always thought that the act or art of conversing and communicating very fascinating. There's that saying, "action speaks louder than words" and it may be so but in many cases, words can evoke and etched deeper feelings. I find having a really good conversation with someone is very stimulating and enlightening, but this is a very very rare occurrence for me. There's always this sense of mystery that draws me in and the need to understand hidden meanings behind words, if there are any, was at times overwhelming. I'm like a moth to a flame. I normally have a good memory to begin with though I don't often like to admit it, but once in an extremely rare occasion I'd meet someone that ticks of all of the boxes and not only etched some lines deep in me so that I won't forget, but they also inspired me, opened up my mind and changed my views of things. Again, perception is in the eyes of the beholder, how I read and view things in others may not be the same as everyone else, I look for the significance that made sense to me where as others overlook or don't see. There are those extreme few people that have crossed into my life and left such deep imprints in me that now I refuse to forget.
I often recall memories here and there, they were the few positive and happy ones.
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N*********son: i think life is about giving and taking
N*********son: give and take yes.
N*********son: but i also feel that giving is better than receiving
SwTLoVeR82: so trade one for one?
N*********son: i like trading
N*********son: i like generous offerings.
N*********son: the bible states you give back ten fold
N*********son: i only refer to the bible when it benefits me
N*********son: "i dont like trading"
N*********son: trading is for negotiators
N*********son: negotiators are liars
N*********son: i'd rather like to think this.... a person gives what they can give because they want to give and give what they want to give
N*********son: regardless of what they receive. the true beauty of giving is not what a person can receive in return for their gift but how they feel after they give
N*********son: and i too like to give.
SwTLoVeR82: ok
N*********son: and i like to give generous. but at this time... i must ask for alms for the poor
SwTLoVeR82: then give me all of you
N*********son: 
SwTLoVeR82: hehehe
SwTLoVeR82: you are clever with words mister
N*********son: i can give all of me... but it is my mind that you must take
N*********son: words are just words... they mean nothing unless the person reading the words believes and the person writing believes
SwTLoVeR82: do you believe then?
N*********son: keep in mind the personality test said that i was a INTJ. "strategist"
SwTLoVeR82: yes i know...
N*********son: but yes.... i believe. if i didn't i'd go to sleep and dream about the girl in this avatar.
N*********son: oh wait..they are the same person. go figure. (hahaha) it was a joke. hope you got it
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N*********son: honestly...... i think i could have if i really really really wanted to... but i chose not to.
SwTLoVeR82: may i ask why?
N*********son: i think it's better that way
N*********son: it allows me to think more clearly. less emotion
N*********son: less emotion and more concentration and focus on the task at hand
SwTLoVeR82: i see
N*********son: do you really see?
N*********son: i know it's still confusing
N*********son: and it'll be even more confusing if you keep asking me
N*********son: trust me.
SwTLoVeR82: i can try to grasp a nunderstanding but again...im not in your shoes so i wouldnt really know
N*********son: some things are better unexplained.
N*********son: don't be fooled
N*********son: i'm giving you the text book reaction
N*********son: you did great.. you answered exactly. it was what was expected.
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N*********son: today i saw a movie "something the lord made"
N*********son: ever heard of it?
SwTLoVeR82: religious?
N*********son: it's a medical movie
SwTLoVeR82: never heard of it
N*********son: it's about medicine. well more specifically open heart surgery and the history of open heart surgery
SwTLoVeR82: sounds interesting
N*********son: the movie is based on a true story and it stars Mos Def and Alan Rickman
N*********son: the interesting thing is that Mos Def plays Vivienne Thomas, the first black person to perform open heart surgery...well actually the first person to perform open heart surgery.
SwTLoVeR82: that is interesting
N*********son:
N*********son: life or love is like two hands
N*********son: i used to say that you need two hands to clap
N*********son: two hands to clap in unison.
N*********son: this is also like love, two people in love can be identified by two hands.
N*********son: well... if you ever get the chance to see the movie. pay close attention to a quote between alan rickman and mos def when they talk about their fathers
N*********son: you'll see where i came up with my personal quote. i based it on what they both said and came up with my own. that is if you get the time
SwTLoVeR82: which quote is that?
N*********son: Well.... Mos Def in the movie has really sensitive hands and is a great surgical tech.
N*********son: Alan Rickman is old and doesn't have the physical capabilities that Mos Def has.
N*********son: anyway...they talk about how their fathers would be proud of them. Mos Def states that Rickman's father would be proud of Rickman when he operates
N*********son: Rickman replies back saying that his father is dead.
N*********son: Mos Def states, the dead are with us all the time. Can't separate the past from the future any more than you can a right arm and your left arm
N*********son: Rickman replies that the two arms are separated by the heart.
N*********son: Mos Def in return states that it is also connected by the heart.
N*********son: I guess it's one of those things you have to watch and see to really see the significance and understand the scenario.
So go on then..... carve your name on my heart
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