July 8, 2012

• Vexing

   
  

  I wrote, je suis triste....

  The person replied, ne vous inquiétez pas. être heureux

  It's not really what I wanted to hear.
  

  
  Easy for you to say since you're not the one who has to wait and always be the one that waits, probably in vain and not be allowed to have expectations. In fact, I never had a say in the matter whatsoever.

  Where are the "amends" that are promised to me? Where are the explanations that were "probably warranted"? Where is the "welcome" that were professed to me? And where is the hand that will hold mine??

  Has there been a change of heart? Has it all been taken back? If that's the case, then tell me so.

  I coveted your presence
  -for support,
  I longed judicial companionship,
  I wanted your confidence
  You give me silence,
  I needed your voice
  in my ear and
  through my heart
  but naught found
  I treasured nearness
  from so far away
  I know naught why
  you remained so afar

  My feelings remains the same if not more intense. But neglect will breed resentment, eventually.

  Years and years of silence....Is this all I'll ever get?

  *sigh*

  I feel tired and sad.......

  And I see no relief in sight............

  
  

  The Hobbit by J.R.R. Tolkien

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